Thursday, July 29, 2010

Why I stopped blogging

Disclaimer: The below statements are not blanket statements directed toward all bloggers. They are what I have experienced periodically throughout my blogging lifetime & describe why I have stopped blogging. If I feel that the following would cease to occur, I will resume blogging again. Until then, here is why I have stopped.

1.) It is addicting. I spent way too much time in blogland. Time that should have been spent down on the floor playing with Annerson, getting ready for bed so I could have some time in the Word & in prayer, or serving my family via laundry, cleaning, cooking, etc. I could easily justify spending over an hour a day looking into the lives of other people, all the while missing out on my own life experiences. Claiming I didn't have time to do this or that. Really? Yet, you were on your computer last night from 9:15-11:00pm Leah? Hm.

2.) I found my relationships off balance. I was spending more time cultivating online relationships through meaningless "comments" instead of picking up the phone and actually calling a friend to catch up...I know, it's a strange concept these days. I thought I was super connected to so many people all at once, when really I wasn't connected to anyone at all. I used it as a substitute.

3.) I craved comments. I placed self-worth in whether or not people commented on my posts. I threw mini self pity parties when the comments didn't roll in after what I thought was a comment worthy post. My worth does not come from whether or not I impress so and so enough to spur them on to leave a comment. My self worth is in Christ. I'd check my email the morning after I posted just to see if anyone commented.

4.) I found myself "staging" if you will, for the sake of a good post. I don't know exactly how to explain this other than I always had "Would this be good post material" in the back of my mind.

5.) I stressed out if I hadn't posted in a while. This was a death trap for me. I'd seriously get more stressed about not posting in a couple of days than I would about not getting filled up on the Spirit by spending time with the Lord. This was a huge red flag to me that blogland wasn't for me.

6.) It fed my ego. Whether it was a post about me or someone else, I wanted people to want to read "MY BLOG" for a reason. That reason being...me.

It didn't start out this way. Only in the past year or so did I start experiencing these things. These things just slowly crept in. I couldn't put my finger on it for a long time. It was only when I stopped blogging during my pregnancy with Lincoln that I stepped out of the burning building long enough to actually see the fire. It wasn't even to the point that I was "obsessed" with blogging by any means, but I know that I don't have to be that far gone to be in Satan's foothold. Maybe you know exactly what I'm talking about or maybe you haven't a clue how or why I feel like this. Either way, we all areas where we are weak. This is one of my mine. Now that I know that, I have to flee. The devil prowls like a roaring lion. So I run the other way.

What it boils down to is that I had made an idol out of my blog. I'm reminded of the Ross King song titled, "Clear the Stage"

"Anything I put before my God IS AN IDOL.
Anything I want with all my heart IS AN IDOL.
Anything I can't stop thinking of IS AN IDOL.
Anything that I give all my love IS AN IDOL.

We must not worship something that's not even worth it.
Clear the stage.
Make some space.
For the One who deserves it."


"Everything is permissible for me, but not everything is beneficial. Everything is permissible for me-but I will not be mastered by anything. "
1 corinthians 6:12

Here's to clearing the stage & making some space...



Friday, April 23, 2010

Because Every Mother Matters

Lex & I have a newborn, 1 week old, named Lincoln. He is amazing. God's miracles are amazing. My sister Steffany has founded an organization called Because Every Mother Matters to help moms in Africa.

Sure, I'll post about Lincoln's birth & all that. But these mothers matter, too. They have stories too. They have newborns that are just as precious as Lincoln. Here's how you can help.

Read Steffany's post below

We have no trinkets to sell. We have nothing that you can purchase to give to your mothers or women of importance in your life on Mother's Day. All we have is a vision. A vision of a holistic maternity and infant development center to be built half way around the world...in a village probably not big enough to be on a map. Because- it is not okay that 1 in 11 women in E.Africa dies due to pregnancy related causes. What do we need? Simply-We need money. What can we offer this Mother's Day? Hope. And the assurance that 100% of your donations go towards building the clinic. There are 3 fridays left until Mother's day. We are asking 3 things. 1. Every friday donate $10 that is a total of $30. 2. On fri. make this your status and provide a link or address to donate. 3.Please let your mom, your friend, your wife, your daughter know that THEY MATTER!

You can donate by clicking on the cool image below. Please memo BEMM.

www.domaconnection.org.jpg


Today is the Day!!!
Friday!
Time to spread the word.
Let the women in your life know how much you love them.
WHY?
BECAUSE EVERY MOTHER MATTERS!

$10 Friday.
Spread it.
Share it.
and
Give it!

"ONE PERSON CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE AND EVERY PERSON SHOULD TRY"
John F. Kennedy

Thursday, April 15, 2010

HE'S HERE!

Hey all!

Lincoln Walker Dooley arrived today at 11:47am. He weighed 8 pounds 6 ounces. He measured 21 (or 21.5?) inches long.

He and Leah are doing great. Leah said the delivery went well. I visited her earlier and she was getting tired but feeling good. Annerson got to meet Lincoln and gave him tons of sweet kisses.




Congratulations to the Dooley family. Thanks for letting me share your precious baby with the world wide web.

Beth

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Tomorrow

Inducing in 8 hours.

Really sad that he hasn't come by now.

A little nervous.

Praying for peace.

Next post: Welcome baby LWD!!!!

Friday, April 9, 2010

Here's why I know

...that Lincoln Walker Dooley will be arriving soon

He's due in exactly 1 week!

Sweet friends are asking me how I'm feeling & if there is anything they can do. We actually have a friend who said she is willing to come sleep at our house w/ Annerson if I go into labor in the middle of the night! Isn't that awesome?

I'm having a very hard time making any kind of decision.

I finished my weekly homework for the Breaking Free Bible study I'm doing 4 days early just in case he comes this weekend.

I shave my legs every time I shower.

It is very uncomfortable to sleep.

I'm swelling a little in my calves & ankles.

I keep the laundry hampers empty so there will be no dirty clothes when we get home from the hospital.

Every time I buy deli meat I think,
"Hmm. Will we be able to eat this in time?" (don't panic, my OB says deli meat is not bad for pregs)

When I kiss Annerson goodnight I wonder if this will be the last night she's an only child.

Lex & I are communicating well, spending great time together & are overall stronger & healthier than we've been in a very long time.

I don't look forward to running errands or getting out as much.

I'm filled with peace.

I'm filled with joy.

I'm filled with anticipation of how this is all going to play out.

I fill God's presence all throughout the day.


How I know Annerson is ready to meet baby Lincoln

1. ) This morning while she was drinking some milk she stopped, looked at me, and said, "Lincoln?". It was totally random & adorable.
2. ) I asked her before putting her in her bed last night if she was ready for Lincoln to come live with us and she replied, "Ready!"


Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Lincoln's Safari

We put the final touch on the nursery today. My friend Laura Moon created this amazing canvas! Isn't it stinkin awesome?!!! Now that it is up the nursery is officially done. With 10 days to spare...



I kinda freak out every time I look at his clothes because there is no pink.
It's gonna take a while.







Monday, March 29, 2010

a celebration for a baby boy


Here are some pics from the baby shower I got to have for Lincoln.
There's nothing quite like celebrating something big in your life with people who are genuinely excited right along with you. It was so awesome.


Cutie welcome sign!

A-M-A-Z-ING
banner that is up in Lincoln's room now

yummy food

one of my favorite gifts!


wonderful hostesses...thank you all for your love & time

sister & step-mom who drove from Austin for the shower
I just have to mention that it was incredibly special for me to have them at the shower. Not once have I had a family member attend any shower I've had thrown for me since I got engaged. This meant a lot to me.

me & Christie


Melissa & Angie

cutest daughter in the world & her mommy


Manon & Amber

Lindsey...
I couldn't believe it when she told me she was going to leave Ft. Worth at 4am in the morning to get to the shower on time and then leave Lubbock 12 hours later to return home. What a blessing to my heart.


Lincoln's goodies from the shower

Thank you everyone who came! It means so much.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

obedience

My nephew Jace was baptized this past Sunday. A complete overflow of joy doesn't quite describe how my heart feels right now. As I gaze upon this picture I see a young man coming out of the cleansing blood of Christ. I see a young man who has walked with the Lord since he was a small boy. More than walked really...he's practically been on a full out sprint since about the age of 10. He's read through the Bible twice, witnesses to everyone (including family members), and is more aware of the Spirit within him than most adult Christians I know (including myself). Now here he is as a 14 year old making a public profession of the faith he has sought long and hard to test & prove.

Truth. That's what this picture says to me. Truth.

Jesus replied, "Let it be so now; it is proper for us to do this to fulfill all righteousness. Then John consented.
Mt. 3:15

Jace, I'm so proud of your decision to get baptized. You are following Christ's example in so many ways & this is one more step in that obedience. I know the past few months have been extremely hard for you. Keep calling upon our Lord to go to battle for you.

I love you sweet nephew.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Belly pics

I have to brag a little bit about Lezlie, our photographer. I first ran across Lezlie's work on a friend's blog & contacted her to see if she'd shoot Annerson's maternity pics for us. We drove to Amarillo for the first time to shoot with her back in July of 2008 and immediately fell in love with her heart & personality. She is a strong believer who seeks to glorify God as a mom, wife & photographer.

Since then we have used her to do all our pictures. There are many amazing local photographers which would be more convenient to use, but we are always more than pleased with the pics Lezlie captures of us. It is well worth the 2 hour distance hurdle for us to continue to use her. We recently asked Lezlie if she'd be willing to start coming to Lubbock to shoot our sessions so we can get familiar places in our home and around town. Of course she eagerly agreed. Lezlie is a blast to work with. Lex & I "offer" a lot of suggestions as to what kind of shots we want and Lezlie always takes our ideas and runs with them. The pics she delivers exceed our expectations.

As always, thanks Lezlie for your heart for photography. You allow us to hold onto beautiful moments in our life through the images you capture.

Here are the maternity pics we did 3 weeks ago.











By the way...baby's name is Lincoln Walker.
I think I failed to put that on the blog.




A few from Annerson's maternity pics.
Notice the stark difference in the tone of the pics.
Each session is so unique with her. Never the same.




Thursday, February 25, 2010

So are you ever going to blog again?

Hello to all the fans out there of this pitiful blog!!!

It's me. I'm posting after almost 3 months of nothing. I keep hearing these encouraging voices in my head...the echo of 1 dear sister & 1 sweet friend asking me over and over again, "Are you ever going to blog again?". I seriously heard these exact words from both of them within 24 hours of each other. So what that it was like a month ago. That's why I said it was an echo.

So here I am.

I'm going to make this short & sweet. Because I feel the need to update from where I left off but have no desire to do such a tedious chore, I am going to instead share a few pics with you of our life since I disappeared.

I'm subtitling this post
"BEFOREs AND AFTERs"

Enjoy.


Christmas morn before we opened gifts

and after
(if you look very very very closely you can see the catastrophic pile of confetti that attacked me as I opened Annerson's present from Uncle Adam and Aunt She Thinks She's Funny. I still find this confetti in random places.
And she thinks she got away with it.)


Before I had ever cooked a Christmas dinner

After
Wa-la!


Before our adorable daughter learned that knocking down block towers
is a good way to get a rise out of daddy

After she knocked them down & couldn't stop laughing at herself


Before when we had a storage room with a concrete floor,
lots of windows & a lot of dust

After my stud husband and Joel
starting tackling "Project Nursery"

After they became master construction workers


Before we had a door in our room connecting to the nursery

After Lex did some manly sawing

After the guys "threw the door up in a couple of hours".
No biggie.


Before the texturing, paint & carpet action

After...this was a beautiful sight


The following are some shots of what I did to keep myself busy since I couldn't work on the nursery while it was under construction.

Our bathroom cabinet before I realized what a disaster it was

After I gave it a little makeover


Kitchen cabinet before

After it became my favorite cabinet in the kitchen


before when this was quite possibly the most ridiculous
storage area in the house or in the universe

after
As Cher from Clueless would say, "Not a total Betty but a vast improvement!"


Before Annerson's 1st haircut! (sniff sniff)

After
Can we say cutie?


Before I was really pregnant


After
32 weeks pregnant, but who's counting?

So there you have it. A glimpse into the lives of the Dooley family. We've been busy doing life, getting ready to be parents of 2 children instead of just 1, and oh...growing a baby. I'm now 34 weeks & I feel like things are starting to settle down a bit. I can't wait to read all your blogs and get caught up with your lives. I'm sure you've noticed due to my lack of comments that I not only neglected my blog but yours as well.

upcoming posts: Lincoln's nursery, maternity pics & baby shower