Thursday, September 17, 2009

Breaking all the rules

I've discovered that the Leah I have become in the past five weeks is not the same Leah I was last time I was pregnant and definitely not the same Leah I was a month ago. Here's how I know this. Lately, I am breaking my own rules left and right. It's not necessarily a bad thing, but it's really freaking me out.

Apparently, I threw this out the window...
1. The no nap rule was the first thing to go. I take a nap EVERYDAY now. When Annerson goes down for her afternoon nap I close my eyes immediately. I look forward to it all morning. The fact that I can do this day after day, not just occasionally, convinces me they missed like 2 other yolk sacs on our ultrasound...cause there's gotta be more than one baby in there! It's just not natural to be this tired!!
2. Baby Einstein is no longer a once in a blue moon treat for Anner. Oh no. I've been sick since Saturday=she's watched it at least once everyday since Saturday. Just typing those words makes me cringe. BUT it is survival in this family right now. Pure survival people. It's awful, I know!
3. I leave dirty diapers in the car now. I DIDN'T MEAN TO!!! I usually bring in everything from the car every time I come home (diaper bag, trash, cups, etc.). Well, the other day Lex & I were getting ready to go somewhere and discovered a nastacular spell coming from the car. Of course I assume it's the trash in the garage...oh no. It was a pee pee diaper that had been in there for a day or 2. Where's your head Leah?
4. Blogging...let me just say that I think about it almost everyday but never do it. The fact that I'm blogging right now about breaking rules instead of our trip to Missouri 2 weeks ago to celebrate Papa's 90th Birthday or baby Grant Dallas being born or the fact that today is my sweet husband's bday and I haven't put up anything for him on the blog (sorry Lexy poo) is out of character for me. I don't like to miss things & when I do, I usually do a ferocious post to get it all in. Not today my friends. I'm moving on. I wish I could post extensively about all those things that have been going on in our life but it's just not going to happen right now.
5. Instead of playing with Annerson in the floor I lay on the couch and watch her play. This is the worst. I'm usually trying really hard not to move around because it's then that I get really nauseous and start feeling awful. So I watch the poor child play and toddle around the room. I don't sleep or anything, just interact from the couch. It's so annoying. At least she still calls me Mama!

Those are a FEW of the things I've been doing of late that are most definitely out of the ordinary for Leah. So if you haven't heard from me in a while or I haven't seemed myself please know that it is only because I feel like a walking nauseous zombie mom who just wants some more sleep!

This pregnancy is very different from the last one. I don't remember being nearly this tired or sick last time. I know the Lord is making me stronger in many ways through this. It's not fun, but it's part of the sacrifice of being a mom. I'm just grateful I get to experience it no matter how unpleasant it may seem to be at times. It's a blessing any way you slice it.

I'm 10 weeks tomorrow! Woohoo for 1/4 down, 3/4s to go!!

Maybe I won't wait half a month until my next post. :)


Lindsey said...

Rules are made for the breaking - everyone knows that. What is the fun in having rules if you can't break them!

Your AMAZING mom to Annerson and you will be an Awesome mom to baby #2 also!!!

Love ya! Lindsey Lu

Brie said...

Oh it is so hard Leah. Just like God chiseled us the first time around, we are being chiseled again. I know it breaks your heart that you are just watching Annerson play but what I see from the other end is that you are making it easier on her when you have to tend to new baby. And remember that this is just a season. I feel the same way as you but my rule breaking occured when Eleri arrived. #1 no kids sleeping in our room-Mali is laying in my be right nowabd I don't want to wake a nursing Eleri to enforce the rule. I could go on with the confessiong but you don't have time for that!! I'll be praying for you. I hear your heart and love for Annerson!

Jennifer-Colley said...

Girl I am so with you! I have made Coby do soo much more lately than ever bc its hard for me to get up and down off the floor and take care of Camren!
Being pregnant at 10 weeks or 34 weeks changes you for sure!!!
Baby Einstein has become a lifesaver for us too! I think I am going to get Praise Baby videos!!!
Thinking of you and totally know where you are coming from! I am starting to freak out about Crew getting here and me not being able to spend as much time with Cam and him being jealous! Love ya and praying for you!

Amy said...

I hear u girl, my second pregnancy was a lot harder too. Just hang in there. Happy Birthday Lex!

Candace said...

This too shall pass! You will get your energy back in a few weeks and it will be great! There are no 'rules', survival of the fittest and you're doing amazing! When I was prego with the twinners, Camryn and I would lay in the bed for hours all snuggled up with a gigantic pile of books. Sometimes I would have her 'read' to me while I 'rested' my eyes and other times I would doze as she would run in and out of the room with toys and books. Hang in there chica! I love you!

Candace said...

Leap frog letter factory! She can learn all her letters...thats how Camryn learned hers!

steffany said...

I just want to fly there right now and give you a huge hug.

Diana said...

Thanks for the encouragement! I do the same thing--look everywhere else but God's word sometime. I needed to hear that. Thanks! Love ya!

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