Sunday, March 22, 2009

It's Tough Being a Woman

Emotions overcome me as I try to sort out what I have been learning the past 9 weeks through Beth Moore's Esther study.  

The theme of the study is "It's Tough Being a Woman".  I now realize just how true this is.  For me, its tough because I make it tough.  The world makes it tough.  We make it tough on each other.  All for the purpose of us searching out the God who created us just the way we are to accomplish for Him just what He desires to accomplish. Not that He needs us by any means.  But that we are chosen to be a blessed part in what He is doing around us.  Part of that blessing is that we, I, get to examine myself and measure myself up to the Word of God.  NOT measure myself up to you. I'm learning to view myself more and more through God's eyes, not yours or even my own.  Let truth set in. Let is take shape.  Let it put to death what needs to die & bring to life what needs resurrecting. How sweet it is when you let God do this in your heart.  No putting up a fight.  No looking for loopholes.  Just pure repentance followed by submission.  

How many times have I wondered if God is really there.  Those times when He's silent, when things aren't going as planned, or when hurt swallows me whole 10 times.  I realize during those times how much of a condition I put on my trust in God.  As long as He's following through I'll bring Him praise.  As long as I'm taken care of as I think I should be I'll look Heavenward.  This study has taken that secret little sinful theory of mine and flushed it.  I love it when I realize super deep sin in my heart and in what seems like the same moment I realize it God swoops in and frees me from it.  Has that ever happened to you?  No time to dwell, to feel like crap, just let it go & move on to that next level of spiritual maturity in Christ.  

How  crazy is it that God is never once mentioned in the book of Esther.  Hmmm...seems odd, seems man centered even.  But He is ALL over that book.  No doubt.  You can barely get through 2 verses without being like "Look what He's doing!  This ties to this and that refers back to that other book in the OT."  Not to mention that the whole book of Esther is one big reversal of destiny (wink wink fellow study peeps) like the uh...BIBLE!!!!  Love it.

Overwhelmed by it.  Bathed in the truth of it.  Freed by His grace.

I would go on and on but I know this probably isn't making sense as is so I'll spare you more confusion.   If you've done the study you probably know what I'm talking about. Or maybe not.  Ha!

Just know that my heart desires for you to study the Word, whether it be this study or another.  Of course I think every woman should do this particular Beth Moore study.  It will change your life if you let it. The book of Esther will show you why even though it's tough being a woman, our God gives us hope & deliverance from all things that war against us.

I leave you with a few other things I learned
  • Faith is putting God in every fill in the blank.
  • I cannot amputate my history from my destiny.
  • God says to never forget what "I dragged you out of."
  • Mean girls try to get other women's men's (is that right?) attention by dressing provocatively.  Keep your breasts to yourself (and your husband if you have one).
  • I have to learn to identify the threat when I start to feel something rise up in me that I know is not right.
  • Destiny involves transparency.  It was for them, so what good is it if they can't see it.  How stinkin true is that.
  • I want someone to take care of me.  I want someone to love me.
  • God often uses crisis to pivot our focus and change our destiny.
  • "What if" really means, "What I Fear"
  • I can protect myself right out of my calling.
  • We'll never fulfill our destiny as long as we straddle the fence.
  • To nurse a grudge towards someone holds us to that person-entangles us to bondage.
  • Any kind of wait seems like an enormous inconvenience in this culture.
  • You can't live your life as if no one is watching.
  • The enemy makes us think we are the center of attention. Nothing drives Satan more than pride.
  • There are people in our lives that we want so desperately to know Jesus-to be in the King's presence.
  • Why do we say in regards to our fav sports team, "We are undefeated." and then change the "we" to "they" when we say, "They lost last night."  We're such moochers!
  • God will not give us strength to fight things that we have imagined. He wants us to be free from fears, not have strength to make things up!
  • One reason we remain in bondage is b/c we keep our secrets to ourselves.  Big battles are won by teams not individuals. 
  • Don't grow cold.
  • Getting the credit is the wrong reason to do the right thing .
  •  When all history is written, the only tales left standing will be those He set.

And lastly, a Beth Moore quote  (pg. 221 of Esther study guide)

"By faith alone, to her face she will fall...then to her feet she will rise, ready to do what deliverance demands.  Then the Rabbi will quote her resolve: "And if I perish, I perish" and the crowd will stand and cheer!  For what if she does perish?  Is that the worst his world's wicked Haman can threaten? On the day that she does, this is what will happen: She will put on her royal robes and stand in the inner court of the palace, in front of the King's hall.  The King will be sitting on his royal throne in the hall, facing the entrance.  When he sees his queen standing in the court, he will be pleased with her and hold out to her the gold scepter that is in his hand (adaptation of Esth. 5: 1-2).  And she will approach.
And cast her crown at His feet.





Thursday, March 19, 2009

55:9-11, Isaiah

As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.  As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes out from my mouth: IT WILL NOT RETURN TO ME EMPTY, BUT WILL ACCOMPLISH WHAT I DESIRE AND ACHIEVE THE PURPOSE FOR WHICH I SENT IT.  

I love that God doesn't depend on us to get the job done.  We are part of the process yes, but He'll accomplish His purposes even when we drop the ball!  Love it. 


Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Big Joys Come in Small Packages

Annerson had a busy day.  She is SUCH a joy.

sitting on her own


not falling over!


so proud of herself


tasted sweet potatoes for the 1st time


looked like a boy in public 
thanks Dad

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Austin trip pics



1st stop: CHEESECAKE FACTORY!


Babies aren't the only ones who get gas smiles.

That's better

Aunt Pat, Andie, Uncle Mason & Annerson

IPhone jam session


Gandy & Gramey


big Anners & little Anners

The Royal family
(really Mason?)


Gandy & Anners at JP's Bed & Breakfast

My dad's crippled dog Darcy

"Look Mom!  I can read!"













Monday, March 9, 2009

No slowing it down

The last 6 months of life has truly been like a completely different life for us. Becoming parents is a big adjustment, bigger than graduating and entering the real world or getting married even.  Every step of the journey has been beautiful and amazing. God's hand is all over our life. We see Him moving in the big events as well as day to day life. He continues to amaze me with His sovereignty and love.

Annerson turned 6 months end of February.  I wasn't really sure when that was exactly since she was born on the 31st and Feb. had 28 days. So I just say "end of Feb."!  I can't believe she's already half way to her 1 year birthday, but then again I can.  Over and over again I hear how fast it all goes by, how she'll be in kinder before we know it, etc. etc.  Instead of dwelling on this I'm embracing it.  Of course she's going to grow.   We're trying hard to really savor every milestone, every first, every new emotion we experience as parents, but also savor the sweetness of getting to watch her grow & change.  She has changed & developed so much from the first day we brought her home from the hospital.  

Look at that hair!  It was really dark and thick with gold highlights for the 1st 6 weeks or so.  Then it started thinning out and lightening up.  Now it's getting thicker again, but it's really 
light and almost strawberry blonde.  I want her dark hair to come back, but I'm not going to freak out if it doesn't.  I'll just dye it.  j/k


She had a great 6 month checkup last week.  Her immunizations are going great & she's growing & developing. 


Here are some of her favorite things to do now.
Suck on her toes
Laugh at silly faces & noises
pose for the camera
be held by mommy & daddy
Eat rice cereal
NOT eat green peas (she tried them today)
Sleep an average of 10 hours at night
Take 3 naps a day
be outside
rub her eyes when she's sleepy
SMILE all the time
cuddle 
grab toys, hair & all things in sight
roll over both ways

She's such a sweet spirited baby.  She's happy most of the time unless she's in the car.  Usually she isn't a fan of her car seat, but she's getting more used to it and crying less while riding around.    

Started out propped up 

then she fell 

She didn't seem to mind so I took like 10 more pics 
while she just leaned on the pillow and looked cute!


We were given a gift certificate for a baby massage class with Betty Sullivan.  Betty came to our house 5 weeks in a row and taught us how to do infant massage.  Annerson loves it! Infant massage is really good for babies' circulation, bonding, bowel movements, etc.  Not to mention that Betty was nothing short of amazing. Annerson wants her to be her adopted grandmother.  She is really sweet.  

Annerson with Betty and baby Jen. 
If you are interested the classes are only $45 total!  The best part is that she comes to your home and works with your schedule each week to find a 1 hour window for the appointment.  It's so easy and fun.  It's definitely worth it.  I highly recommend it for infants of all ages-newborns or older. 



Yummy toes

Can't get enough

Uh...got enough of that.  Thanks.

HAPPY 6 MONTHS LITTLE BLESSING!  WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH & LOVE WATCHING YOU GROW!  




Thursday, March 5, 2009

Road Trip

We are headed for Austin tomorrow morning.  Annerson has her 6 month appointment at 9:30 and then we hit the road.  

If you think of us this weekend take that as prompting to pray.  I'm always burdened in my Spirit when I go to Austin.  Pray for boldness & that we would reflect Christ. 




Monday, March 2, 2009

A NEW 9:30 BABY IS ON THE WAY

12 week old peanut


It's not mine!!  
Don't be crazy!  

IT'S BETH DALLAS!!  And my dear friends, Beth has finally decided to join us in Blogland.  Hallelujah Jesus!!